brave

sometimes it's hard to be brave. it's scary not knowing what to do with your life. i know i'm constantly afraid that i'm going to make a mistake that will be detrimental to my perfectly painted future i have masterfully created in my mind. ill be the first to point out that i'm not perfect. i'm impatient and stubborn, i get upset easy, i take on to much, and hardly finish anything i start. i'm a girl with big dreams and not enough courage to pursue them. i think i'm ready to find that courage...to be brave, to finish things that i start and to pursue my dreams. watch out kids....here i come....or at least i think.

insignificant

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I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade. 

-The Holiday

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You by the light is the greatest find
In a world full of wrong you're the thing that's right
Finally made it through the lonely to the other side
You said it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark,
And I'm in love and I'm terrified.
For the first time and the last time
In my only life. This could be good
It's already better than last
And nothing's worse than knowing
You're holding back I could be all that you needed
If you let me try. You said it again, my heart's in motion, Every word feels like a shooting star I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark
And I'm in love and I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only I only said it 'cause I mean it
I only mean it 'cause it's true. So don't you doubt what I've been dreaming 'Cause it fills me up and holds me close Whenever I'm without you. You said it again, my heart's in motion Every word feels like a shooting star Watching the shadows burning in the dark. I'm at the edge of my emotions And I'm in love and I'm terrified. For the first time and the last time In my only life.

stupid boy

glitter in the air

have you ever watched the snow fall? just sat and watched as the snow slowly and quietly covers the earth in a beautiful white cotton blanket. i've lived here my whole life and it wasn't until yesterday as i drove home that i stopped to just watch, watch as glitter  literally fell from the sky as if god was celebrating the new year to come. between the snowflakes falling from the sky to the ones on the ground everything sparkled. it was the most beautiful thing i had ever seen. but it wasn't until that moment that i realized that if you stop for just a bit, you will find beauty in the smallest things.

so, here's to 2013. to goals, and dreams, and celebrations. to doing what makes you happy and seeing that there really is beauty in each day.

repeat

this song is on repeat. all day. everyday

[july needs to hurry up and get here. pronto.]