hiding

today/tonight has been awful. i'm stressed and frustrated, and i need to clean my room and guess what it's not happening. but there's always tomorrow right? good thing i'm getting my hair done....that always seems to fix everything. 

holding out for a hero

chiv·al·ry

 [shiv-uhl-ree]

noun, plural -ries for 6.

1.

the sum of the ideal qualifications of a knight, including courtesy, generosity, valor, and dexterity in arms.

2.

the rules and customs of medieval knighthood.

3.

the medieval system or institution of knighthood.

4.

a group of knights.

5.

gallant warriors or gentlemen: fair ladies and noble chivalry.

i've sat and stared at my computer screen trying to find the words to write this blog post. as i've sat and thought the only thing that came to mind were the lyrics to "holding out for a hero" by ella mae brown. 

"where have all the good men gone and where are all the gods? where's the streetwise hercules to fight the rising odds? isn't there a white knight upon a fiery steed? late at night i toss and turn and dream of what i need. i need a hero, i'm holding out for a hero till the end of the night, he's gotta be strong, he's gotta be fast and he's gotta be fresh from the fight. i need a hero, i'm holding out for a hero till the morning light, he's gotta be sure, he's gotta be soon, and he's gotta b larger than life. larger than life. somewhere after midnight in my wildest fantasies somewhere just beyond my reach there's someone reaching back for me. racing on the thunder and rising with the heat isn't there a superman to sweet me off my feet? I need a hero, i'm holding out for a hero till the end of night. he's gotta be strong, he's gotta be fast and he's gotta be fresh from the fight. i need a hero i'm holding out for a hero till the morning light,  he's gotta be sure, he's gotta be soon, and he's gotta be larger than life. i pray the mountains meet the heavens above. out where the lightning splits the sea. i can swear that there's someone somewhere watching me. through the wind and the chill and the rain, and the storm and the raging flood. oh, his approach is like a fire in my blood. i'll meet a hero and then we'll dance till the morning light. dreaming, he will lead me, held tight, tonight's the night. i need a hero, i'm holding out for a hero till the end of the night he's gotta be strong, he's gotta be fast and he's gotta be fresh from the fight. I need a hero, i'm holding out for a hero till the morning light. he's gotta be sure, he's gotta be soon, and he's gotta be larger than life, larger than life."

take it from a girl who has settled for less the i deserved, who has learned and who continues to learn from my mistakes. don't settle for less. you are wonderful, beautiful, talented, strong, independent women who deserve the very best. don't let any boy tell you other wise. wait for the boy who gives you butterflies. stop degrading yourself, if you want boys to treat you with respect....you first need to treat yourself with some. 

bob ross and best friends

most girls watch the bachelor on a monday night but what do lindsey, alie, and i do? we watch bob ross. if you don't know who bob ross is please go google him or find him on the tv. he is a wonderful painter. i've never been the artsy type. i'm a horrible artist. in fact, i've only really mastered the art of stick figures and even those are sometimes questionable but ever since i was a little girl i've always wanted to be able to paint. my great grandma was a painter. she painted beautiful oil painted landscapes. as a little girl i would sit and look at these paintings and a sense of peace would come over me. the same feeling i get when i watch bob ross. you may think i'm crazy but it's wonderful to watch someone take a blank canvas and turn it into a exquisite realistic portrait of emotions and memories.

come one come all

Hey friends on Saturday the 28th, I will be performing at 6:00 at the Utah County Health Fair and Dance Off at Pleasant Grove Jr High School! Come and learn how to keep up on those goals of being healthier and also have a fun time dancing! All proceeds go towards "Share Our Strength! No Kid Hungry!" bring your friends, family, neighbors, anyone you can think of. This is going to be great!! Hope to see you there! 

perfectly perfect

in a perfect world this would be my boyfriend...mr liam hemsworth himself. 

and this would be how he would propose & of course i'd say yes

& this would be my ring...beautiful right?

this is where we'd vacation

and he'd bring me my favorite flowers and tell me how much he loved me every day

and we'd live happily ever after here

little things

• good weather
• bendy straws
• music
• being lifted off the ground during a hug
• smiling in the middle of a kiss
• hitting the "high" note
• remembering stories of how you first met someone
• when someone holds the door open for you
• fuzzy socks
• sweatshirts
• when someone understands your sense of humor
• waking up with clear skin
• handwritten letters
• getting flowers
• the fresh, clean feeling after taking a shower
• the satisfying feeling of making someone laugh really hard
• not being able to finish a sentence because you're laughing so hard
• guys who smell good
• old couples
• when the week goes by fast
• when you and your best friend say the same thing at the same time
• the smell of just-shampoo'd hair
• when the butter melts on your toast
• christmas lights at night
• proving a smart person wrong
• continuous green lights while driving
• clothes that just came out of the dryer
• hearing that you were in someones dream
• getting mail
• a pen that works really well
• hugs from behind
• good morning texts 
• the smell of breakfast in the morning
• kisses on the forehead
• when someone remembers the things you said
• making a perfect signature
• holding hands
• reuniting with a loved one at the airport
• quality bonding time
• songs that give you chills
• when you get a baby to stop crying
• getting a compliment you've never received before 
• going to sleep knowing you can sleep as long as you want
• changing into PJ's after a formal event
• hearing your favorite song live in concert
• when someone comes running to hug you
• being able to fall asleep right away
• seeing a picture of your parents when they were younger
• when someone texts back instantly
• sleeping in your own bed after being away
• the moment before a kiss
• looking through old photographs
• when someone gives you a hug for the first time
• when you get butterflies
• when you accomplish a goal
• victoria secrets underwear
• picking out the perfect outfit
• macaroni and cheese from noodles and company
• 11:11 wishes that come true
• perfect hair days
• chia tea
• finding the perfect dress
• wearing mittens
• snowflakes
• cookies
• making new friends
• finding a new perfume that smells so good
• the sun peeking through the trees
• finding money in your pocket
• showering after working out
• ice cream in waffle cones
• wearing PJ's all day
• getting the christmas gift you wanted
• vacations with your family
• admiring the clouds 
• snowball fights
• spending the day in bed with nothing to do
• dandelions 
• drive in movie theaters
• the one ring you always wear
• the feeling after you put on chap stick
• hand sanitizer
• putting the past behind you
• rings
• city lights
• sparkles
• being treated right
• snow covering the lights
• kissing under the mistletoe
• the feeling you get right before you go on a roller-coaster
• getting lost in a good book
• waking up and snuggling in your blankets
• looking good in a bikini
• donating money for a good cause
• inside jokes
• perfect eyeliner
• liam hemsworth
• waking up to a kiss
• watching the grinch on christmas eve
• newborn babies
• the smell of candles
• watermelon
• tan lines
• watches
• decorating the christmas tree
• cereal
• romantic evenings
• fireworks
• listening to rain hit your window
• brownies
• watching easy a
• sparklers
• baseball
• football
• lacrosse
• the smell of campfire
• water balloon fights
• the carnival
• new york
• quotes
• thinking back to how far you've come in a year
• putting the last piece into a puzzle
• spending time with your best friend
• wearing skinny jeans
• home cooked meals
• lady antebellum
• first kisses
• feeling safe
• being crafty
• singing in the shower
• making snow angels
• fresh bed sheets
• family

kicking my heels

okay you all must listen to this NOW it's unreal....i'm obsessed and watching for it to come to itunes like a hawk. ah goose bumps! enjoy 

Here are the wonderful lyrics

Why you keep me around?

When you can have any guy in this town

Am I the best you hope for

Just the best that you found

And there’s no way to explain it,

But either way I’ll take it.

Through the haze of the whisky lights

And the haze of the angels dressed in cocaine white.

I’m not trying to make you change

But love, I know what I like

First you play along, you know what’s wrong

But then it starts feeling right.

And all the more I drink

The less I feel sorrow

The more I make

The less that I borrow

The more I love ya

The less that I feel alone

Stoned, kicking my heels alone,

Stoned, kicking my heels alone.

Every person and place that I’ve been

I keep seeing the same thing all over again

See even God needs the devil

And I’m one hell of a friend

If it makes you feel much better

At least we’re going down together

Now the more I drink

The less I feel sorrow

The more I make

The less that I borrow

The more I love ya

The less that I feel alone

Stoned, kicking my heels alone.

Stoned, kicking my heels alone.

best of the best

this post is very overdue and i've been meaning to write it for sometime now but it's hard when you are grateful for someone as much as i am grateful for this person it's hard to put into words how much they mean to you so bare with me. as everyone knows i've never really had good friends that were girls. sure i always had guy friends but sometimes a girl just needs another girlfriend to talk to about well you know girl stuff.  i posted awhile ago about how god has a funny way of placing people in your life just when you need them. well it all started when i volunteered to help throw a bachelorette party for one of our best friends weddings. well i'd known this girl for a couple years now because of the friend we had in common but because we lived so far away from each other i rarely saw either one of these girls. well we instantly clicked and honestly from there we've been best friends. she's honestly an answer to my prayer...i really needed a good friend while matt was gone and the lord has given me more then that. he didn't just give me a good friend he gave me the best friend i've ever had. this best friends name is lindsey benson and i honestly don't know what i'd do without her. people talk about those friends that you'll have forever, no matter what and lindsey will be that friend. she's always there for me no matter what and she's not afraid to tell me when i'm being completely irrational and stupid. but this post is not only to let you all know what a wonderful best friend i have but also to let her know how wonderful she is. i think sometimes in our day to day lives we forget how wonderful we really are. so here it is.


Lindsey, BT, BT Yoda, Best Friend,


I hope you know how incredible you are. you are the strongest girl i've ever met, and no i'm not just talking about your incredible legs. you've been through a lot and i don't know how you still do it. i admire you and look up to you more than you'll ever know. i've never met anyone as smart as you, you are seriously brilliant and extremely hard working. you're drive and ambition is something i envy and admire more than you will ever know. i know you don't think so but you are seriously beautiful. not just beautiful on the outside but on the inside as well. i've never met someone with as big as heart as you have. you will do anything, for anyone, no matter what. thank you for always being there for me. thank you for being my gym buddy, snuggle buddy, and laughing buddy. you seriously are the friend i've needed my whole life and i'm so grateful i've finally found ya. thank you for never judging me, i've never met someone who is so christ like and so understanding that people make mistakes. thank you for being my number one fan. thank you for letting me chew your ear off with pageant things and for always keeping my spirits high and keeping me focused on that end goal. like i said at the beginning it's hard to put into words my gratitude for you because there really isn't enough time in the day. you are amazing and beautiful and one heck of a catch my friend you can and will accomplish so much. don't let anyone or anything tell you different. i love you and thank you for being my best friend. 

Love,
Lauren.